Drunken Lunacy

The moment you realise that binge drinking is no longer for you is magical.

In the past couple of years my hangovers have become atrocious 90% of the time. After a night on the beer it takes me 3 – 4 days to recover properly and as the hangovers have worsened over time, my need to binge has significantly lessened, it is just not worth it. No matter how bad the next day was though I still always enjoyed being drunk but as I started drinking less, (more…)


Finding calm during a storm

Chrysalism – “the amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm”

When everything went south with work last year and the investigation began looking into my timekeeping, my anxiety became worse that it had been for a long time so I decided to do something about it, I decided to get some real help. I started seeing a psychiatrist once a week, she was a lovely lady that really, really helped me. Amanda was her name and I will never forget how she has changed my life, made my brain healthy again. (more…)

Ignorance is NOT Bliss

What is worse… to be ignored or to be rejected?

Both are horrible feelings but which is worse. When being ignored, you want nothing more than to just know. To ask and then be rejected, could lead to thoughts of wishing you’d never asked and continued to live in blissful ignorance. Personally I think ignorance (more…)

Love turns me a little crazy!

I haven’t even been able to bring myself to write anything for the past 7 months, it’s been a horrible year but I am writing today because I feel like I could combust with anxiety and feeling completely overwhelmed. Mostly it is my love life, secondly it’s money worries and thirdly (what a strange word) it’s not knowing where my life is heading. I think I’ll keep just keep to the one subject today.

I feel  like the luckiest woman on the planet to be given a second chance at my life with Nick. We’ve spent the past 5 months working through things, it has been impossibly hard at some points but there is no way I’m giving up on the man I love. I am giving it my everything, (more…)

What she tackles, she conquers.

I think I live in a dream world, I believe in soul mates, reincarnation and karma. A lot has changed in my life in the past few weeks and for the first time I have found myself living alone. It is scary and it was unexpected but I am doing it. One day at a time I get up and carry on with my life. My house is constantly tidy so when I finish work, I can just relax because  I have no one to pick up after which in theory is nice but it is actually kind of boring. I light my candles, make a cup of tea and then get lost in Manhattan with Carrie Bradshaw or in Stars Hollow with Lorelai Gilmore. (more…)